I Could Use Your Thoughts and Prayers

[ralmat55]

Thank you Patsboy12 for sharing with us. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

You are not alone. I am fighting for my life as well. In July, my wife left to be with a man from England she met on the Internet. Two weeks ago today he came to take her back home with him to England. The next day I was sitting in the floor of the upstairs closet where my wife launched her affair with a knife in my hand ready to cut myself until I bled to death. A call from my sister and nephew that they were visiting stopped my plan as I did not want them to find me.

Since then, my wife has gone to England with her lover, and I can see pictures and watch videos of them cavorting on the English countryside on the website where they met. Everyone who knows my wife including coworkers at the police department where she worked believe she is experiencing a severe mental health episode, but none of us could stop her from flying off with a man she knows nothing about except what he wanted her to see.

I am beside myself with sadness, anger and fear for the woman I still love dearly. I just want to escape my skin and run as far and fast as I can. Thoughts of suicide are constantly in my mind. I have a firm plan and date to carry it out.

Please pray for me. A week from today I will be dead by my own hand if this curtain of depression does not lift.

 

[mosey threetupu]

Good luck in dealing with this buddy. I know from family experience it is not easy but like others have said sometimes things are darkest before the dawn. I know it's a corny cliche and not all that helpful with a medical/chemical condition but it is often true as well.

 

[Mack Herron]

I'm sorry for your struggles. Depression is a terrible illness. Stay strong.

If you really can't cope, you might also want to try this:

Need help? United States:
1 (800) 273-8255
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
Hours: 24 hours, 7 days a week
Languages: English, Spanish
Website: www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

It's a free call. Give it a chance.

 

[PatsfaninBulgaria]

Thank you Patsboy12 for sharing with us. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

You are not alone. I am fighting for my life as well. In July, my wife left to be with a man from England she met on the Internet. Two weeks ago today he came to take her back home with him to England. The next day I was sitting in the floor of the upstairs closet where my wife launched her affair with a knife in my hand ready to cut myself until I bled to death. A call from my sister and nephew that they were visiting stopped my plan as I did not want them to find me.

Since then, my wife has gone to England with her lover, and I can see pictures and watch videos of them cavorting on the English countryside on the website where they met. Everyone who knows my wife including coworkers at the police department where she worked believe she is experiencing a severe mental health episode, but none of us could stop her from flying off with a man she knows nothing about except what he wanted her to see.

I am beside myself with sadness, anger and fear for the woman I still love dearly. I just want to escape my skin and run as far and fast as I can. Thoughts of suicide are constantly in my mind. I have a firm plan and date to carry it out.

Please pray for me. A week from today I will be dead by my own hand if this curtain of depression does not lift.

Your life is worth more than your loss. You are valuable and loved by others - the betrayal you have experienced from your wife is not the measure of who you are. Even if you can't see it now, there is a purpose for you, for your life, and others need to be allowed to have the opportunity to get to know you, care about you, and learn from you. The mental situation that has led your wife to her actions does not have to define who you are - there are many who can testify that they felt like you do right now, but by asking for help, they got through this dark time. You have the ability to reach out and get that help. Just like you did not want your sister and your nephew to find you, they, and others want you to keep fighting, and keep going. No matter what problems you are dealing with, there are many people who know you and care about you who want to help you find a reason to keep living. You have always been someone worth knowing - your friends and family will testify to that - before you were married, and you still are that same person. I am praying for you and, like many, many others, care what happens to you. - Please call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) anytime 24/7.

 

[Mountain_Commando]

Thank you Patsboy12 for sharing with us. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

You are not alone. I am fighting for my life as well. In July, my wife left to be with a man from England she met on the Internet. Two weeks ago today he came to take her back home with him to England. The next day I was sitting in the floor of the upstairs closet where my wife launched her affair with a knife in my hand ready to cut myself until I bled to death. A call from my sister and nephew that they were visiting stopped my plan as I did not want them to find me.

Since then, my wife has gone to England with her lover, and I can see pictures and watch videos of them cavorting on the English countryside on the website where they met. Everyone who knows my wife including coworkers at the police department where she worked believe she is experiencing a severe mental health episode, but none of us could stop her from flying off with a man she knows nothing about except what he wanted her to see.

I am beside myself with sadness, anger and fear for the woman I still love dearly. I just want to escape my skin and run as far and fast as I can. Thoughts of suicide are constantly in my mind. I have a firm plan and date to carry it out.

Please pray for me. A week from today I will be dead by my own hand if this curtain of depression does not lift.

Ken, please don't hurt yourself.

DON'T GIVE UP! This will pass. You can get through this.

Take some time off from work. Open your heart to your family and friends, I guarantee they will give you all the support you need. See a doctor. DO NOT GIVE UP! We're all rooting for you man.

 

[JR4]

Thank you Patsboy12 for sharing with us. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

You are not alone. I am fighting for my life as well. In July, my wife left to be with a man from England she met on the Internet. Two weeks ago today he came to take her back home with him to England. The next day I was sitting in the floor of the upstairs closet where my wife launched her affair with a knife in my hand ready to cut myself until I bled to death. A call from my sister and nephew that they were visiting stopped my plan as I did not want them to find me.

Since then, my wife has gone to England with her lover, and I can see pictures and watch videos of them cavorting on the English countryside on the website where they met. Everyone who knows my wife including coworkers at the police department where she worked believe she is experiencing a severe mental health episode, but none of us could stop her from flying off with a man she knows nothing about except what he wanted her to see.

I am beside myself with sadness, anger and fear for the woman I still love dearly. I just want to escape my skin and run as far and fast as I can. Thoughts of suicide are constantly in my mind. I have a firm plan and date to carry it out.

Please pray for me. A week from today I will be dead by my own hand if this curtain of depression does not lift.

Kenneth, I had something like that happen to me. I can remember one Sunday morning in my living room. There is such a thing as mental pain. This pain was so intense because I had lost the woman I
loved so much to a man who she came in contact with often.
I felt I was changing inside. I was becoming hateful and I had never felt that way before.
I remember praying with eyes closed and a vision of someone in a white robe without stretch hand
appeared. From shoulders up was so bright I could not see his/her face. I reached up as to take the
outstretched hand and felt a peace come over me. From that point on there was like shield around
my mind. The painful thoughts would come in the months to follow but they never caused the intense
pain I had been feeling and I stayed the person I was.

I never got my wife back but we are friends today and we share in the joy of a wonderful grandson.
The man who came between us knocked on my door one day and asked for forgiveness which I was able to give. I can shake his hand today and have no hate inside towards him.
This to me, this is a miracle and I know such a thing can happen for you.

I am praying for you that God will surround you with his love and you will know His presence and that
you will receive a peace that will help you through the days and months ahead.

 

[SammyBlueCat]

 

[shmessy]

Thank you Patsboy12 for sharing with us. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

You are not alone. I am fighting for my life as well. In July, my wife left to be with a man from England she met on the Internet. Two weeks ago today he came to take her back home with him to England. The next day I was sitting in the floor of the upstairs closet where my wife launched her affair with a knife in my hand ready to cut myself until I bled to death. A call from my sister and nephew that they were visiting stopped my plan as I did not want them to find me.

Since then, my wife has gone to England with her lover, and I can see pictures and watch videos of them cavorting on the English countryside on the website where they met. Everyone who knows my wife including coworkers at the police department where she worked believe she is experiencing a severe mental health episode, but none of us could stop her from flying off with a man she knows nothing about except what he wanted her to see.

I am beside myself with sadness, anger and fear for the woman I still love dearly. I just want to escape my skin and run as far and fast as I can. Thoughts of suicide are constantly in my mind. I have a firm plan and date to carry it out.

Please pray for me. A week from today I will be dead by my own hand if this curtain of depression does not lift.

Ken, just like with Patsboy12, we are all in your corner. From your post it sounds as if your sister is nearby. Please let her or anyone close to you who is in the vicinity to know you are hurting and need help. Don't be ashamed to ask. The most courageous thing you can do is to reach out to someone nearby who can help. heck, your post above is already a reach-out, so you can do it. Also, just as patsfaninbulgaria wrote, Please call 1-800-273-TALK (8255)anytime 24/7. I'm no expert on any of this so I don't want to say anything to screw it all up, but if you read through this thread I'm sure so many of the posts from people here who truly understand what you are going through and wrote to Patsboy12 would have helpful and caring advice . You matter, d%#*!@t. I'm praying for you.

 

[SammyBlueCat]

 

[Brady_to_Moss]

Be strong and I know you will be. My father passed earlier this year..he took his own life and I just haven't been the same since...I have my good days..and my horrible days. But I have to stay strong for my mother. Do I breakdown? Sure do..still and will for probably ever. Best of luck. If need anyone to talk to we are all here for you my friend

 

[Bobs My Uncle]

Ken, please seek the counsel of those who can help you through this event. That you opened up here if a great start. Please, place a call to those who are experts in knowing how to deal with instances like this. God bless and may he give you strength.

 

[WinstonSmith]

I thought I would share a friend's story.

I have a friend who has battled major depression throughout his life. A few years ago we had a long conversation about his troubles and discussed his thoughts about suicide; he said that he was far too curious about what tomorrow would bring to ever go through with it.

Although he still battles his demons, he has experienced (and will continue to experience) many incredible and memorable adventures with his family and friends. Don't give up hope ...tomorrow is just unclaimed potential - it could bring new friendship, new opportunities, new or rekindled romance...maybe a new Lombardi.

 

[Ring 6]

Thank you Patsboy12 for sharing with us. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

You are not alone. I am fighting for my life as well. In July, my wife left to be with a man from England she met on the Internet. Two weeks ago today he came to take her back home with him to England. The next day I was sitting in the floor of the upstairs closet where my wife launched her affair with a knife in my hand ready to cut myself until I bled to death. A call from my sister and nephew that they were visiting stopped my plan as I did not want them to find me.

Since then, my wife has gone to England with her lover, and I can see pictures and watch videos of them cavorting on the English countryside on the website where they met. Everyone who knows my wife including coworkers at the police department where she worked believe she is experiencing a severe mental health episode, but none of us could stop her from flying off with a man she knows nothing about except what he wanted her to see.

I am beside myself with sadness, anger and fear for the woman I still love dearly. I just want to escape my skin and run as far and fast as I can. Thoughts of suicide are constantly in my mind. I have a firm plan and date to carry it out.

Please pray for me. A week from today I will be dead by my own hand if this curtain of depression does not lift.

Kenneth,

Please go now and get help. You are not thinking clearly, which is what depression causes.
You will move on. I have a friend who went through a very similar experience to you, and felt the way you do. He sought out professional help, and, it wasn't easy, but now his life is happier than it ever was. He is remarried to the best person I know, and in the end it was a blessing in disguise.
No one knows what will happen tomorrow. Just keep in mind that when things are as bad as they are for you right now they do get better. Stick around for those days. You will not regret it.

 

[Ian]

Thank you Patsboy12 for sharing with us. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

You are not alone. I am fighting for my life as well. In July, my wife left to be with a man from England she met on the Internet. Two weeks ago today he came to take her back home with him to England. The next day I was sitting in the floor of the upstairs closet where my wife launched her affair with a knife in my hand ready to cut myself until I bled to death. A call from my sister and nephew that they were visiting stopped my plan as I did not want them to find me.

Since then, my wife has gone to England with her lover, and I can see pictures and watch videos of them cavorting on the English countryside on the website where they met. Everyone who knows my wife including coworkers at the police department where she worked believe she is experiencing a severe mental health episode, but none of us could stop her from flying off with a man she knows nothing about except what he wanted her to see.

I am beside myself with sadness, anger and fear for the woman I still love dearly. I just want to escape my skin and run as far and fast as I can. Thoughts of suicide are constantly in my mind. I have a firm plan and date to carry it out.

Please pray for me. A week from today I will be dead by my own hand if this curtain of depression does not lift.

Just sent you a PM and email.

 

[PatriotsReign]

Thank you Patsboy12 for sharing with us. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
You are not alone. I am fighting for my life as well. In July, my wife left to be with a man from England she met on the Internet. Two weeks ago today he came to take her back home with him to England. The next day I was sitting in the floor of the upstairs closet where my wife launched her affair with a knife in my hand ready to cut myself until I bled to death. A call from my sister and nephew that they were visiting stopped my plan as I did not want them to find me.
Since then, my wife has gone to England with her lover, and I can see pictures and watch videos of them cavorting on the English countryside on the website where they met. Everyone who knows my wife including coworkers at the police department where she worked believe she is experiencing a severe mental health episode, but none of us could stop her from flying off with a man she knows nothing about except what he wanted her to see.
I am beside myself with sadness, anger and fear for the woman I still love dearly. I just want to escape my skin and run as far and fast as I can. Thoughts of suicide are constantly in my mind. I have a firm plan and date to carry it out.
Please pray for me. A week from today I will be dead by my own hand if this curtain of depression does not lift.

The fact that you're depressed is a good sign because it shows you care. I think something would be wrong if you weren't depressed. I know that's not consoling, it's just the truth. You're human and you feel emotion. I have a cousin on the LAFD and his wife just walked out on him. I'm going to his sister's wedding next week and I'm sure that's going to be hard for him. But he'll be there despite his pain because he cares about his sister.

No words anyone can type can take away your pain. But I hope knowing that others care enough about you to respond offers some comfort.

A little over 25 years ago, I was at the jumping off point in my life. I was trapped in addiction to alcohol and cocaine, had been fired from a great job and my friends no longer wanted my company. Everyday felt like darkness was closing in more and more. Finally, something (I believe it was God) made me reach out for help. From that day to this, my life has been a journey full of joy, happiness, pain and heartache...and yes, sometimes even depression. But I have learned that "this too will pass"....I know that sounds goofy, but it's true.

Learning to put myself and my well-being first has taken years. I will never put the love of another person ahead of myself because I know if it doesn't work out, I'll still have ME! I am the only person responsible for my happiness and I know today it takes a lot of effort and self-reflection to learn to love myself.

Whenever I feel darkness today, I walk toward the light. I find that light in others I love and in nature and excercise. Please do not sit and wallow in the darkness. Take some action if you can or call someone that will walk with you. And most importantly, try to avoid depressants like alcohol.

I wish I could email or text all of that to you. But I can only share my own experiences. I pray you find all that I have found and more Kenneth. I promise it's there for you if you're willing to do the work.

 

[Batman]

Hi Patsfans,

This thread will probably be moved shortly (I hope it's allowed to stay for just a day at least), but it's a bit of a serious post and I need some prayers. Obviously this is a sports forum and all, but without getting into too much, I have been in an ongoing bout with depression. I have been getting counseling and everything, but the thoughts of ending it are back and they're strong. I have really enjoyed being on the board talking Patriots with all of you very much. I guess I just wanted to reach out to those of you who pray and ask that you please pray for me. I don't know where my journey will end up and I'm trying very hard to fight and stay positive, but things are rough for me at the present time in a lot of different ways. Please send some words up in prayer for me as I continue to try to make sense of some of the things that have happened and some of the present difficulties I am having.

I hate to put up such a sad thread and all, but I just needed to "verbalize" this and my usual outlets are unavailable to me at this time. I hate that I have to reach out in this fashion, but I didn't know what else to do in my present state of mind. It was the only thing I could do to keep from doing something worse. I thank you all for giving me a place of refuge to talk only Patriots, which is one of the few things in my life that I still enjoy.

Sorry to hear this. I do not pray so can not put you in my prayers I am in the UK we have millions of people suffering depression, my fiancée being one of them and some times she like to talk to a total stranger about things. I see people here offering there numbers I will offer you mine also I am 5 hours ahead and up at 6am so if it's after 1am for you I am up and willing to take a message on email, FB, what's app, iMessages, Twitter or here and can be on Skype to speak to.

I do voluntary work with children with varied degrees of mental health issues and never judge them. Don't let anyone tell you any of the thoughts are too small, insignificant or nothing. One day you may believe that and help someone in your position. I care for all people wether I know them or not and want you to know there are always people here to listen or to talk to you if you just want to have some kind of contact with someone.

I will not mind if you totally ignore my offer. As long as you know we are here for you.

 

[BTTA]

Ken,

Glad you are able to speak out loud to this. Keep doing it. The emotion needs to flow.

And as others have said, GO GET HELP NOW. Both professional, and any and every friend you can muster up. No one (who matters) will judge you. Let me say that again: No one will judge you.

And take a look at the incredible human stories told here on this forum...the deep places many of us have been and crawled back out of. Who woulda' thunk it? And the open-hearted responses...amazing.

Let's go brother. Don't let those people ruin the rest of your life. And stop watching those videos! You don't deserve further torture.

Matt

 

[Kontradiction]

Thank you Patsboy12 for sharing with us. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

You are not alone. I am fighting for my life as well. In July, my wife left to be with a man from England she met on the Internet. Two weeks ago today he came to take her back home with him to England. The next day I was sitting in the floor of the upstairs closet where my wife launched her affair with a knife in my hand ready to cut myself until I bled to death. A call from my sister and nephew that they were visiting stopped my plan as I did not want them to find me.

Since then, my wife has gone to England with her lover, and I can see pictures and watch videos of them cavorting on the English countryside on the website where they met. Everyone who knows my wife including coworkers at the police department where she worked believe she is experiencing a severe mental health episode, but none of us could stop her from flying off with a man she knows nothing about except what he wanted her to see.

I am beside myself with sadness, anger and fear for the woman I still love dearly. I just want to escape my skin and run as far and fast as I can. Thoughts of suicide are constantly in my mind. I have a firm plan and date to carry it out.

Please pray for me. A week from today I will be dead by my own hand if this curtain of depression does not lift.

That would be an incredibly selfish thing to do to your family and loved ones. Think about them and seek counseling. Do not go on that website. I know this sounds impossible to think about, but this may have happened to you for the best. My mom caught my dad in an affair after 43 years of marriage and is now living on her own and told me a couple of weeks ago she sat with a plate full of pills in her lap and a bottle of wine and tried to call me to say goodbye but I didn't answer the phone. She didn't do it because she didn't want to take her life without saying goodbye to me so she fell asleep drunk and woke up the next morning with second thoughts about it. When she finally told me about that a couple of weeks ago, I told her that I would have never forgiven her if she did that. She now thinks it's for the best that she caught my father so she didn't have to live a lie. Think about THAT. Live for your loved ones if not for yourself. I promise you that it will get better. I will keep you in my thoughts as well and hope that you can one day feel the sunshine on your face with a smile on it once again.

 

[SalemPats]

Just be thankful that you are not a Jets fan

 

[neuronet]

Let's go brother. Don't let those people ruin the rest of your life. And stop watching those videos! You don't deserve further torture.

Yep. The last thing anyone needs when depressed is to push themselves further down the rabbit hole. There is no good to come out of that. Depression feeds on itself, there is an awful positive feedback loop. The only way to get out of it is to get help outside of the hypnotizing beguiling perseverative train of thought that seems so damned tempting but only ends poorly for all involved.

Doctors, friends, family, Patsfans, help lines, exercise, I don't care what you do to get the mind out of that hypnotic quicksand of self-defeating thought. Just do it bro we are here for you!

I messaged you my digits use 'em.