2nd Team Getting Their First Start
Don't give up
I am so happy to hear these messages found their mark. There is a lot of bad in the world but there is also a lot of good. You found that today in relative strangers simply because you reached out hoping for it. PLEASE keep reaching out for the good, whether it be friends, family, professionals or just anyone. The more you try to find the good the more you will find.I wanted to check in one more time with you all tonight to say that I have spoken to a few of you and PMed some of you already. I have decided to PM each of you individually (and there's nothing you can do about it LOL) to express my gratitude. I have found strength in the words that you all have left for me. The support from this board has been insane (in the best way) and I did not expect it. Just take this as my very public thank you, and know that I will be responding privately in the coming days. You ALL have blessed me tonight more than most of you will ever realize. Not only do I have an awesome team and coaching staff, but I have an awesome forum to run to and take refuge. I'll stop here before I get emotional again. I just wanted to say THANK YOU to EACH of you. I'm a lucky guy tonight.
This thread will probably be moved shortly (I hope it's allowed to stay for just a day at least), but it's a bit of a serious post and I need some prayers. Obviously this is a sports forum and all, but without getting into too much, I have been in an ongoing bout with depression. I have been getting counseling and everything, but the thoughts of ending it are back and they're strong. I have really enjoyed being on the board talking Patriots with all of you very much. I guess I just wanted to reach out to those of you who pray and ask that you please pray for me. I don't know where my journey will end up and I'm trying very hard to fight and stay positive, but things are rough for me at the present time in a lot of different ways. Please send some words up in prayer for me as I continue to try to make sense of some of the things that have happened and some of the present difficulties I am having.
I hate to put up such a sad thread and all, but I just needed to "verbalize" this and my usual outlets are unavailable to me at this time. I hate that I have to reach out in this fashion, but I didn't know what else to do in my present state of mind. It was the only thing I could do to keep from doing something worse. I thank you all for giving me a place of refuge to talk only Patriots, which is one of the few things in my life that I still enjoy.