I don't know why everyone is attacking me.
I just really love the Patriots and seeing them fail on the cusp of greatness sort of broke through the wall I had up and just a lot of emotions are flooding through. I think that it is healthy to cry especially when you love your team.
What's more manly, to feel like crying but wear a proud face or to let the tears flow?
Well, honestly a football game is not worth crying over. Upset, down, well over the top down OK. Honestly, really down.
The only times I ever cried in my life. Just twice. First time when I lost my grandfather who I adored. I hope he is in heaven so I can see him again. Darn, I loved that guy. When he was in the hospital, I went from work to the hospital and spent every moment I could with him. When I lost him, darn right I cried. A lot.
Second time, when I lost my dog of 14 years. He became my best friend. (Not that I don't have a life, I do) But my dog, I would just go off with him and spend hours and hours in the woods, the beach, wherever. He suffered a terrible death from cancer, and it took me so long to get over it. I cried, a lot.
So when you take this all into perspective, crying over a football game sounds rather foolish.
When you have people or pets that you love and lose, it is so over the top hard. Something to cry about.
I have to admit I did cry another time, it might have been a weak moment. It was the ending of Dances with Wolves ( a movie if you have not seen it). I felt such a sadness for what we have lost. Nature, the love of nature and being alone and quiet. I think that is why the world is quite nuts -- we need time to be at peace. Silence, beautiful and peaceful -- and with a great dog if you are lucky.
So, forget about being gay or crying, snap out of it. There is a whole lot worth more to cry about. Organized religion, your family hates you, well OK, that is their problem, not yours. Move on.