I Could Use Your Thoughts and Prayers

[ralmat55]

Hello my friends. I can not say I am healed because that process has only just begun. But I can say the crisis has passed. That I will not be taking my life over this. It was an emotional week with the divorce hearing and all. But not once did those thoughts enter my mind.

Spending my weekend with family. But plan to write a post expressing my full gratitude and decisions I've come to about my future tomorrow or early next week. Hoping the Pats win tomorrow and wish everyone a great weekend. Thank you!


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[Tony2046]

Hello my friends. I can not say I am healed because that process has only just begun. But I can say the crisis has past. That I will not be taking my life over this. It was an emotional week with the divorce hearing and all. But not once did those thoughts enter my mind.

Spending my weekend with family. But plan to write a post expressing my full gratitude and decisions I've come to about my future tomorrow or early next week. Hoping the Pats win tomorrow and wish everyone a great weekend. Thank you!


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That's just awesome. Enjoy your weekend.

 

[maryk]

Hello my friends. I can not say I am healed because that process has only just begun. But I can say the crisis has passed. That I will not be taking my life over this. It was an emotional week with the divorce hearing and all. But not once did those thoughts enter my mind.

Spending my weekend with family. But plan to write a post expressing my full gratitude and decisions I've come to about my future tomorrow or early next week. Hoping the Pats win tomorrow and wish everyone a great weekend. Thank you!


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I cannot tell you how much this one post has made my weekend! You have touched so many lives here, and made a lot of us realize just how much of a "family" this board is. Have a wonderful weekend, enjoy your family. Thank you!

 

[ralmat55]

I cannot tell you how much this one post has made my weekend! You have touched so many lives here, and made a lot of us realize just how much of a "family" this board is. Have a wonderful weekend, enjoy your family. Thank you!

Thank you my dear friend. Recently, I have felt embarrassed for having posted about all of this. A feeling comes over me telling me that I've made a fool of myself for doing so and that as many are laughing at me as being supportive and encouraging.

Your post helps me see that it would have been foolish to not have or to have stopped. I hope no one has felt burdened by my using this thread as an emotional lifeline. It has been a lifesaver that I know.


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[shmessy]

Thank you my dear friend. Recently, I have felt embarrassed for having posted about all of this. A feeling comes over me telling me that I've made a fool of myself for doing so and that as many are laughing at me as being supportive and encouraging.

Your post helps me see that it would have been foolish to not have or to have stopped. I hope no one has felt burdened by my using this thread as an emotional lifeline. It has been a lifesaver that I know.


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You have done a great and courageous thing.

Never EVER forget that.

 

[Tony2046]

Thank you my dear friend. Recently, I have felt embarrassed for having posted about all of this. A feeling comes over me telling me that I've made a fool of myself for doing so and that as many are laughing at me as being supportive and encouraging.

Your post helps me see that it would have been foolish to not have or to have stopped. I hope no one has felt burdened by my using this thread as an emotional lifeline. It has been a lifesaver that I know.


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Ken, it is such a pleasure reading your posts. Don't be embarrassed for reaching out. I'm sure you will be there for others when they need you. It's how the world works. No one worth knowing is laughing.

Have a great week and thank you.

 

[neuronet]

Good to hear you have climbed out of the hole long enough to worry about being embarrassed. Nothing to worry about, we all got your back.

 

[aluminum seats]

Thank you my dear friend. Recently, I have felt embarrassed for having posted about all of this. A feeling comes over me telling me that I've made a fool of myself for doing so and that as many are laughing at me as being supportive and encouraging.

Your post helps me see that it would have been foolish to not have or to have stopped. I hope no one has felt burdened by my using this thread as an emotional lifeline. It has been a lifesaver that I know.


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Zero to be embarrassed about. We all feel despair sometimes, takes courage to share like you've done.

Glad you're doing better.

 

[BTTA]

Recently, I have felt embarrassed for having posted about all of this. A feeling comes over me telling me that I've made a fool of myself for doing so and that as many are laughing at me as being supportive and encouraging.

Ken, I suspect that anyone out there judging you negatively about this, especially to the point of laughter, is in worse shape than you are, in the sense that they are in pain but unable to find the courage to own it and open up about it. We all know that people who make fun of others are simply hiding from their own issues, but it is so easy to forget when the target. Real easy.

While you are in this emotional space, please feel free to tell them to f*ck off, as taking care of yourself must be primary for a while longer.

Of course, all that assumes that there are Patsfans members who are laughing at you, which may not be the case at all. There are some grumps in the main forum, as evidenced by some of the harsh posts, but for most if not all, I don't think it translates from football to something this important.

Hope you are feeling well today.

 

[BTTA]

And here's a post by my daughter, telling of the lowest point in her life, should you find inspiration in it. I certainly do.

My Life With Tourette Syndrome

 

[ralmat55]

And here's a post by my daughter, telling of the lowest point in her life, should you find inspiration in it. I certainly do.

My Life With Tourette Syndrome

What an incredible story of perseverance .you must be incredibly proud of your daughter.

Her article might also have some practical advice that will help me with my battle with depression as well as anxiety and OCD. Like the advice your daughter got, I am going to start looking upon them as a bully, and I am going to stand up to the bullies that have pushed me down so much of my life.

Thank you!


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[BTTA]

Ken,

You should also know that she's a New England sports fan. At one point, she had the worst teenage crush on Nomar Garciaparra. She had Green Monster seats for one of the very first games they were available, went to the bathroom, only to have him hit a HR right over her seats while she was gone. One of the stories from her life we laugh about now.

I think she was 12 or 13 when she walked into the room holding the SI cover of him stripped to the waist after a winter of weight training, and said to my wife, "Wouldn't you love to lick Hershey's syrup off of that!" My wife has never recovered. (My little girl!!) I'm pretty sure it was done for effect.

Anyway, enjoy, and smile.

 

[Hercules Rockefeller]

Thank you my dear friend. Recently, I have felt embarrassed for having posted about all of this. A feeling comes over me telling me that I've made a fool of myself for doing so and that as many are laughing at me as being supportive and encouraging.

Your post helps me see that it would have been foolish to not have or to have stopped. I hope no one has felt burdened by my using this thread as an emotional lifeline. It has been a lifesaver that I know.


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Those who would be inclined to laugh would never admit to it, because to do so would be to admit that they are intimidated by your courage. They wouldn't have the bravery to do what you have done. Don't worry about those people, those people don't exist and couldn't hurt you if they did.

Good job Mr. Sims, bright times are ahead for you my friend. I'm so proud of everyone who has participated in this thread, what good people.

 

[Tony2046]

Ken,

You should also know that she's a New England sports fan. At one point, she had the worst teenage crush on Nomar Garciaparra. She had Green Monster seats for one of the very first games they were available, went to the bathroom, only to have him hit a HR right over her seats while she was gone. One of the stories from her life we laugh about now.

I think she was 12 or 13 when she walked into the room holding the SI cover of him stripped to the waist after a winter of weight training, and said to my wife, "Wouldn't you love to lick Hershey's syrup off of that!" My wife has never recovered. (My little girl!!) I'm pretty sure it was done for effect.

Anyway, enjoy, and smile.

That is an incredibly funny story.

My two kids, 12 and 9, love to embarrass their mother as well. The latest is they have her publicly say the name of a made up program in which the acronym spells a curse word. ie... After School School.

"Mom you've never heard of A.S.S.?"

 

[edkk323]

Hello my friends. I can not say I am healed because that process has only just begun. But I can say the crisis has passed. That I will not be taking my life over this. It was an emotional week with the divorce hearing and all. But not once did those thoughts enter my mind.

Spending my weekend with family. But plan to write a post expressing my full gratitude and decisions I've come to about my future tomorrow or early next week. Hoping the Pats win tomorrow and wish everyone a great weekend. Thank you!


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Hi Kenneth. It is also great to hear you doing fine!!!!!!!!
please be aware though depression sometime can creep back in when you do not expect.
Just remember you have a community to fall back to.

 

[shmessy]

And here's a post by my daughter, telling of the lowest point in her life, should you find inspiration in it. I certainly do.

My Life With Tourette Syndrome

Man, you must be SO proud of your daughter.

What she wrote is powerful and empowering. What perspective! That is applicable to so many things growing up.

Loved that and am going to have my son and daughter read it after school today.

 

[Reckedtrek]

Ken, you are not a burden. You are an inspiration. I only wish more had the courage to speak up the way you did and continue to check in.

Keep facing forward and keep moving!

 

[PatsDeb]

And here's a post by my daughter, telling of the lowest point in her life, should you find inspiration in it. I certainly do.

My Life With Tourette Syndrome

Incredibly inspiring story. Thanks for sharing and lucky father AND daughter.

 

[ralmat55]

Hi Kenneth. It is also great to hear you doing fine!!!!!!!!
please be aware though depression sometime can creep back in when you do not expect.
Just remember you have a community to fall back to.

It came back with a vengeance today. Worse than any day in a while. The shaking inside and feeling of just total despair. Those thoughts returned but refused to dwell on them.

It is going to be a tough couple of months . My ex and I met in November. Her birthday, our wedding anniversary, Christmas, and my birthday all fall in the next 53 days. Just too many memories.


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[anditsgood]

It came back with a vengeance today. Worse than any day in a while. The shaking inside and feeling of just total despair. Those thoughts returned but refused to dwell on them.

It is going to be a tough couple of months . My ex and I met in November. Her birthday, our wedding anniversary, Christmas, and my birthday all fall in the next 53 days. Just too many memories.


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The first of everything is going to be the tough, but you already went through the toughest part, by going to court, by signing those papers,etc

Fill the time and emptiness with friends and family, whether its your sister/nieces/nephews, or your pats family

We are here for you.