I Could Use Your Thoughts and Prayers

[ralmat55]

Bad night and bad morning. Did not watch the game. Started to but wanted to just sleep more.

Glad they won and hope Sheard and Cannon injuries are not bad.

Heading to work soon. It will be a long day if my sadness remains.

 

[anditsgood]

Bad night and bad morning. Did not watch the game. Started to but wanted to just sleep more.

Glad they won and hope Sheard and Cannon injuries are not bad.

Heading to work soon. It will be a long day if my sadness remains.

Just occupy your mind, dont be afraid to tell your self to shutup, and force every bad thought out of your brain

 

[shmessy]

Bad night and bad morning. Did not watch the game. Started to but wanted to just sleep more.

Glad they won and hope Sheard and Cannon injuries are not bad.

Heading to work soon. It will be a long day if my sadness remains.

Hang in there, buddy.

Just a heads up. There is one play from last night that you may want to see, and may put a smile on your face.

We're all sending best thoughts to you.

 

[Tony2046]

Bad night and bad morning. Did not watch the game. Started to but wanted to just sleep more.

Glad they won and hope Sheard and Cannon injuries are not bad.

Heading to work soon. It will be a long day if my sadness remains.

Good morning Kenneth. Just go to the Snapfu thread. Fitzy (out of character) Already on the Fake Punt Play!!!!!!!! | New England Patriots Forums - PatsFans.com Patriots Fan Messageboard

Try to figure out what the Colts were trying to do.

Were they trying to draw the Pats offsides? but then why snap the ball? were they supposed to snap the ball? Was there a screen pass? Wait, was that formation illegal? Did they practice this?

You see it's an endless loop of questions without any answers. Its a paradox.

Anyways cheer up buddy.

 

[ralmat55]

Having a horrible day. My insides are shaking again, and I just want burst out if my skin and run away. Still a lot of day left. Please lift me up with your thoughts and prayers.

 

[shmessy]

Having a horrible day. My insides are shaking again, and I just want burst out if my skin and run away. Still a lot of day left. Please lift me up with your thoughts and prayers.

Sending you positive force, buddy.

Are you in touch with your doctor/therapist?

 

[Kontradiction]

Having a horrible day. My insides are shaking again, and I just want burst out if my skin and run away. Still a lot of day left. Please lift me up with your thoughts and prayers.

Be weary of the rebound, man. I saw that you're talking to someone. A rebound is good if she can make you forget about your ex but, sometimes, they can only make you long for your ex even more. Take things slowly with the new woman/women in your life. Hope the day gets better, bud.

 

[BTTA]

Having a horrible day. My insides are shaking again, and I just want burst out if my skin and run away. Still a lot of day left. Please lift me up with your thoughts and prayers.

I'm here for you. As are dozens of others on the Board. PM if you want to chat.

 

[anditsgood]

I'm here for you. As are dozens of others on the Board. PM if you want to chat.

Exactly

 

[Reckedtrek]

Haven't checked in for a few days. Ken, you can do it, and I believe that you will make it through all of this. It may or may not sound good to you, but what you're feeling is normal. Now that usually sounds good, but when normal is this hard it doesn't sound so good anymore. I know from experience.

The next few months will likely be the toughest, but with spring the weather will improve, you will have made it through the holidays, etc... and things will get better. Why am I bringing all of this up with one day at a time? Because it means that there IS an end to your pain, and the method to achieve it is not suicide. It is living.

Live one day at a time, but know that with every single day, good, bad, or a mix, you are one more closer to a better life.

 

[Reckedtrek]

My boy Moses 6/1/06 to 10/15/15 - RIP my precious boy

Cancer

And to Moses, may he rest in peace. I lost two dogs and a cat in a 6 month time span a few years ago. The second dog (last of the three that died) dies at 12:30am the day of the Pats vs. Giants, Round II. Cancer took the first dog, and has taken another since then.

The best way I found to deal with it was to let the feelings out and then volunteer at a local dog shelter taking dogs for walks. I wasn't ready for another dog right away, but it helped me and helped them and I ended up in better cardio health because of the exercise.

Helping others (dog shelter, food pantry, etc...) is a really good way to heal yourself, gain perspective on the human will to fight to survive and begin to rebuild and restore. This and professional counseling are essential tools of recovery.

 

[ralmat55]

Home and doing better tonight. It's funny how fast an episode of depression can come on and how fast it can go away. There doesn't have to be any trigger either. It just comes and goes.

One thing is becoming clear to me. My depression has been a lifelong problem aggravated to crisis by my wife's leaving and not caused by it. If one thing good comes out of this, it is that it had forced me to seek treatment for the first time. Perhaps, I can spend the rest of my life living and not just existing.

I want to thank you all for holding me up through this struggle. I am fighting very hard for you and my family. I have received PM's which I have not responded to. I am sorry but have been so tired. They are very much appreciated.

 

[ralmat55]

Be weary of the rebound, man. I saw that you're talking to someone. A rebound is good if she can make you forget about your ex but, sometimes, they can only make you long for your ex even more. Take things slowly with the new woman/women in your life. Hope the day gets better, bud.

That was my sister's advice also. Go slow!But, she knows me; I am a softy. She also told me that she would not bite her tongue like she did as my relationship with my ex started.

That was a rebound relationship. She had just lost her husband to cancer only 3 months earlier. I was an emotional wreck after putting my mother in a nursing home.

Going to go as slow as I can. Maybe just look for companionship first and not forever love.

 

[BTTA]

Home and doing better tonight. It's funny how fast an episode of depression can come on and how fast it can go away. There doesn't have to be any trigger either. It just comes and goes.

One thing is becoming clear to me. My depression has been a lifelong problem aggravated to crisis by my wife's leaving and not caused by it. If one thing good comes out of this, it is that it had forced me to seek treatment for the first time. Perhaps, I can spend the rest of my life living and not just existing.

I want to thank you all for holding me up through this struggle. I am fighting very hard for you and my family. I have received PM's which I have not responded to. I am sorry but have been so tired. They are very much appreciated.

Great post. Many of us were waiting for you to arrive at that conclusion about your lifelong struggle. The depth of your anguish and strength of the darkness was a clear signal that this was about more than a single relationship. And you've left a lot of breadcrumbs.

And in a way, we've all been on the journey with you. For some, it is a potent reminder of places visited in the past. For others , it is a reminder of loved ones who have been through the same. There's been a lot of struggle and healing going on in this thread!

But mostly we've just been the guy at the bar listening. You are the guy with the courage and passion to get through this first recovery stage. It isn't really my place to even say what I've just said. This is your story.

Some joy is just around the corner...

 

[Tony2046]

That was my sister's advice also. Go slow!But, she knows me; I am a softy. She also told me that she would not bite her tongue like she did as my relationship with my ex started.

That was a rebound relationship. She had just lost her husband to cancer only 3 months earlier. I was an emotional wreck after putting my mother in a nursing home.

Going to go as slow as I can. Maybe just look for companionship first and not forever love.

Your sister is a smart lady. Rebound relationships are like loading up your plate with the first food you see at a buffet. Best is to sample all the food then choose which one to fill up on.

That means casually date. Go do fun things with different people and in groups etc... don't go out with a specific goal of meeting someone just go to have fun.

You're kicking ass Kenneth. Keep it going.

 

[anditsgood]

Home and doing better tonight. It's funny how fast an episode of depression can come on and how fast it can go away. There doesn't have to be any trigger either. It just comes and goes.

One thing is becoming clear to me. My depression has been a lifelong problem aggravated to crisis by my wife's leaving and not caused by it. If one thing good comes out of this, it is that it had forced me to seek treatment for the first time. Perhaps, I can spend the rest of my life living and not just existing.

I want to thank you all for holding me up through this struggle. I am fighting very hard for you and my family. I have received PM's which I have not responded to. I am sorry but have been so tired. They are very much appreciated.

Im sure im speaking for most, if not all, this post is your reply to all of your PMs,
Im glad today has improved, train your mind, and get those happy endorphins going by positive thinking

 

[neuronet]

Always here for you feel free to PM me any time, or call.

 

[ralmat55]

Good morning my friends. Doing well this am. Thank you all for supporting and encouraging me. I am more grateful everyday that PB12 started this thread.

 

[PatsDeb]

Glad you are feeling a little better and have sought treatment. Keep up the good work. There is light at the end of the tunnel and you are moving towards it.

 

[Ring 6]

Good morning my friends. Doing well this am. Thank you all for supporting and encouraging me. I am more grateful everyday that PB12 started this thread.

Give credit to your own strength. People here are behind you but you are the one fighting the fight. Your resolve is great to see. The ups and downs are part of the deal and you seem to recognize that and are handling it well. Pat yourself on the back buddy. You were dealt a bad hand. You are not letting it beat you.
Keep the thought in your head that however you are feeling it can change quickly. Proud of you.