I Could Use Your Thoughts and Prayers

[Ring 6]

I am doing pretty well. He was an amazing dog who gave me wonderful moments to remember the rest of my life.

He loved rides and he fully enjoyed his ride to the vet with his head out the window, the wind whipping his fur and a smile on his face.

I knew when they weighed him that it was bad. He had lost 22 lbs since March. Then, the vet lifted his tail and saw the cancer which was practically eating away his anus. It was an easy decision. The easiest I have ever had with a pet.

My thanks to everyone who offered their condolences. Heading to sleep. It was another sad day.

I've been away from the board for a few days and just saw this. Very sorry for your loss. Hang in there buddy.
Keep the patriots in mind as they are the shining example of adversity making you stronger when you dont allow it to weaken you.

Stay strong there are many good times ahead. Start thinking about a new puppy!!!

 

[Ring 6]

Having a bad day. The uneasy feeling is back. My sadness is intense. It's a combination of Moses and my ex. Especially the ex.

She often told me that I loved the dog more than her. Well, the results are in now that I have lost them both. She was wrong, and it wasn't close.

I hope you are noticing how well you are fighting through the difficulty. You are going to have days days but you have proven you are stronger than them. You should be proud of the way you are fighting and winning.

 

[PatsDeb]

Having a bad day. The uneasy feeling is back. My sadness is intense. It's a combination of Moses and my ex. Especially the ex.

She often told me that I loved the dog more than her. Well, the results are in now that I have lost them both. She was wrong, and it wasn't close.

Ken please call your doctor or counselor to ask for some additional support. We are all thinking about you.

 

[neuronet]

Keep posting keep plugging both of you

 

[n1997y]

How about November 8th, when the 'Skins visit the Pats? We could pick a sports bar, gather up a half dozen or more Pats fans from this board.
There's always Murphy's in Alexandria, but that's so crowded and everyone is a Pats fan so what's the point?

Ironically I'll be in Boston that weekend. Going up for a big party, bunch of friends from Burning Man take over a bar for the night. I'm afraid it would take more Pats fans than the DC area has to compete...

 

[ralmat55]

It has been a long day.. Another sad day. All I want to do is sleep so not going to fight it. Tomorrow I am going to work for a few hours before heading to my sister"s for the weekend.

Moses' absence was felt more today than yesterday..

 

[shmessy]

It has been a long day.. Another sad day. All I want to do is sleep so not going to fight it. Tomorrow I am going to work for a few hours before heading to my sister"s for the weekend.

Moses' absence was felt more today than yesterday..

Hey, at least I'm glad to see you have a plan and will be a bit busy. ENJOY SUNDAY man!!!!!!!

 

[anditsgood]

It has been a long day.. Another sad day. All I want to do is sleep so not going to fight it. Tomorrow I am going to work for a few hours before heading to my sister"s for the weekend.

Moses' absence was felt more today than yesterday..

Just keep your self and mind occupied,

 

[Tony2046]

Food for thought.

While looking through the PetFinder website trying to find our dog a few years ago I was amazed to see how many homeless dogs there were. Thousands of them. When we adopted ours a few years ago he was incredibly timid and ducked his head in fear whenever you tried to pet him. He would freak out when I had a rake in my hand. Three years later he is just a wonderful (*******) family member who shows no fear for anyone in the family. I sometimes wonder what he had been through that had made him so timid initially.

I say all that (I apologize) to say this. When someone loses their pet I am sad that someone lost their buddy but at the same time I celebrate that their pet enjoyed the life they had. Far too many live in undeserving homes.

 

[Zeus]

I am doing pretty well. He was an amazing dog who gave me wonderful moments to remember the rest of my life.

He loved rides and he fully enjoyed his ride to the vet with his head out the window, the wind whipping his fur and a smile on his face.

I knew when they weighed him that it was bad. He had lost 22 lbs since March. Then, the vet lifted his tail and saw the cancer which was practically eating away his anus. It was an easy decision. The easiest I have ever had with a pet.

My thanks to everyone who offered their condolences. Heading to sleep. It was another sad day.

Kenneth -

Sorry for your loss. In this case, you were called upon to be the grown-up and the leader. You have risen to the occasion and done the right and courageous thing. While the challenges you face will continue, I believe your strength of character will see you through.

Keep fighting. You will continue to meet these challenges because in your heart of hearts, you know that it is worth it.

 

[Hercules Rockefeller]

Hey when it rains, it pours, and it's facking pouring right now. But you're doing all the right things my man, and your raincoat has never been stronger. You made the decision you needed to make, it feels right, we're good.

Your sister is an all-star and is great for being there for you, be sure to soak up the good vibes coming from her house.

I am very sorry about your dog, my condolences my friend.

 

[ralmat55]

Mo's passing and my ex's nonchalant response to the loss of a pet we once both cherished has sent me tumbling back down into the hole of despair. Thoughts of the relief of death are back and stronger than they have been in a long time. It all seems like a horrible dream from which I can not awaken.

Will be at my sister's by early afternoon. I want people around me who love me but at the same time I want to be alone.

Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. If I make it through this, all of you will be a big reason why.

 

[anditsgood]

Mo's passing and my ex's nonchalant response to the loss of a pet we once both cherished has sent me tumbling back down into the hole of despair. Thoughts of the relief of death are back and stronger than they have been in a long time. It all seems like a horrible dream from which I can not awaken.

Will be at my sister's by early afternoon. I want people around me who love me but at the same time I want to be alone.

Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. If I make it through this, all of you will be a big reason why.

Prayers are sent,

Being alone is the worst thing at this time, keep you mind occupied and self busy, Talk to your sister about the silly childhood things you did together , and laugh about the childhood past, Dont beat your self up, time and empty space is your enemy, and You WILL make this through, do it for US, for you and for Mo.

Just stop thinking of the ex, she doesnt deserve your thoughts

God Bless

 

[Kontradiction]

Mo's passing and my ex's nonchalant response to the loss of a pet we once both cherished has sent me tumbling back down into the hole of despair. Thoughts of the relief of death are back and stronger than they have been in a long time. It all seems like a horrible dream from which I can not awaken.

Will be at my sister's by early afternoon. I want people around me who love me but at the same time I want to be alone.

Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. If I make it through this, all of you will be a big reason why.

That's because your ex was never the person you fell in love with. It was all a charade and she's letting her true colors be seen now. I've been where you are so I know that it's hard to stop thinking of her as the person you thought she was, but that will get easier to do with time. I also know that you're not going to stop thinking about her so being told that time and time again is a waste. But try to know day by day that this is a blessing in disguise. It doesn't feel like it right now and it hurts like hell, but most blessings in disguise do at first. Mark my words: one year from now, you will be looking back at this situation and wondering why thoughts of taking your life ever crossed your mind because of her.

 

[neuronet]

Kenneth I am not surprised that her reaction wasn't what we'd expect from a mature reasonable emotionally well adjusted person. Everything you have said about her paints the picture of someone who is the opposite of mature and emotionally well adjusted. Thank God Mose had you there to be the mature loving caregiver.

Hang in there man, tell your sister we love her!

 

[Ring 6]

Mo's passing and my ex's nonchalant response to the loss of a pet we once both cherished has sent me tumbling back down into the hole of despair. Thoughts of the relief of death are back and stronger than they have been in a long time. It all seems like a horrible dream from which I can not awaken.

Will be at my sister's by early afternoon. I want people around me who love me but at the same time I want to be alone.

Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. If I make it through this, all of you will be a big reason why.

Thoughts and prayers your way.
Your ex's response should only strengthen your resolve. She is not who you thought she was and this is another reason. You are beating yourself up over why she left you. She left you because she is not a good person. Her ambivalence about Moses tells you what she is about. She acted like she cared about him but she only cares about herself. She will no doubt do the same thing to this other dude that she did to you. You are better off without her. You have a life to go live and it will be better without her. You just aren't seeing that yet. You will.

 

[Clonamery]

Your future ex isn't interested in taking care of you. You're the caretaker in that relationship. Final nail in that dead thing.

The person you want will see you for who you are and not let you be that caretaker. She'll want you to share yourself. You'll know the difference and realize real love.

Hang in there pal. Remember it is a rollercoaster....

 

[anditsgood]

@Kenneth Sims

I see you read us on the phone every now and again, if you can, keep us posted

@PatsBoy12
Keep us up to date with you too

 

[Tony2046]

Killing yourself erases your future. It erases all the good times you will have. It erases all the good things you will do that will make this world a better place for you and those you come in contact with. Killing yourself is not a momentary escape it's permanent. Killing yourself does not get rid of the pain it only passes it on to everyone else who cares about you. They will miss you and wish you were there during Thanksgiving, during Christmas or any other holiday/birthday etc... That pain will live on in those that could have been helped by you in the future. OR you can kill this pain by defeating it and getting rid of it for good.

Proud of you for posting your feelings in this forum.

Depression is a treatable disease and you will defeat it. You will be happy again and you will meet someone again. Those things will happen.

I suspect you and @PatsBoy12 have already helped people here on this forum without even knowing it.

Stay strong buddy.

 

[ralmat55]

At my sister 's and brother in law's. Doing better than I was this morning. Thank you all for your encouragement. Agreed my ex is not anymore the woman I married.