My wife and I are both "mature" and sometimes I think of what life would be without her, cannot imagine the grief and loss I would experience.. as we are pretty much joined at the hip.
When I heard about your loss, cannot imagine going it alone with three kids and all the other responsibilities of work and maintaining a domicile..
My thoughts are with you, but your strength and beliefs will help you to get you where you need to be...
I listen to Willie Nelson's version of "Just Breathe" often, as I know we will "meet on the other side" someday..
"Yes, I understand that every life must end, aw-huh,
As we sit alone, I know someday we must go, aw-huh,
Oh I'm a lucky man, to count on both hands
The ones I love,
Some folks just have one,
Yeah, others, they've got none, huh-uh"