I really appreciate writing such as yours. There's nowhere near enough of it on this site. A reason is because the average football fan is psychologically a apollonian male, not dionysian. This means he identifies with Apollo, symbolizing physical strength and enforcement of social rules, such as not displaying outer emotion. They think with their left hemisphere, the more linear, less creative & imaginative side. They prefer this over over pensive inner thought. Most guys on this site would choose to keep experiences such as yours to themselves, in fear of appearing weak, for some ungodly reason.
On the other hand, dionysian males, the ones whore more likely to write in the vein you just did, identify with Dionysis, the god of wine, song, and revelry. They thinks with their right hemisphere, the less linear, more creative and expressive side. Modern day dionysian males tend to be musicians, artists, and writers.
