Hi, I'm not a big poster on this board, although I look forward to reading it daily. Today I felt an urge to put my situation out there and see how others are dealing with it as I'm sure I am not alone. The Rodney Harrison HGH/Spygate situations have left me very down. Rodney was one of my favorite NFL players when he played in San Diego and I was ecstatic when we were able to acquire him. After seeing him play only a few games for us, my admiration and respect for him grew immensely. Those feelings grew the more I watched him play. My heart broke as he suffered major injury after major injury but I was not shocked to see him bust his butt to get back on the field. I was very excited to see him stay healthy and have possibly one more monster year for us this year. So when the HGH story broke, I couldn't believe it. Don't get me wrong. I am not naive enough to think that this stuff doesn't happen throughout the league, but I guess I just held Rodney to a higher standard. Although upset and disappointed, I was able to wrap my brain around this enough to come to the understanding that he made a very wrong decision and that he, like many other NFL players, deserved the opportunity to 'serve his time' and move on. Then, on the heals of that, this spygate story breaks and I'm like the boxer who just got back on his feet after being Peter McNeeley'd and I'm taking a Mike Tyson upper cut that seems impossible to recover from. This has seriously impacted my ability to fully enjoy what has the potential of being a historic Patriots season. What I am asking for in this post is...how can I not let this happen? I know that the Patriots are not the only team that practices these tactics. I know that what they really gained from them is very little and possibly even nothing. However, one of the things that I've really enjoyed in the past seven seasons is reading, listening and watching everything Patriots. To do this now is only deepening the depression. Will I be able to enjoy this machine that is the 2007 New England Patriots? God, I hope so! Thoughts?