Absolutely gut wrenching. My wife and I also lost our first baby, Callen, at 20 weeks into the pregnancy due to that darned emb cord. Absolutely gut wrenching and heart breaking. Took us a long, long time to come to the realization that these things happen and we were not to blame. The what if questions absolutely destroy you on the inside, but leaning on others and talking helps ease those questions. We did not quite realize how common and how many people we knew, pretty closely, went through something similar. That period of feeling alone, and like you did something wrong is tough to take, but with the help of others and leaning on my wife and family really got us two through that dark time. Weve got two girls now, but still have those what if questions creep in from time to time. I know the McCourtys won’t read this message, but to them and everyone affected by this type of scenario, realize you are not to blame and not alone in those dark times. Rely on your friends and family, and you will push through.