I Could Use Your Thoughts and Prayers

[PatsDeb]

PS = don't go for the hooker thing. I can tell it's not your style and would only complicate your recovery. Give yourself some time to heal then stick your big toe back out there.

 

[neuronet]

Kenneth any reasons you have to stay in touch with her are probably hard to write down because they will come off as rationalizations....Which they probably are.

At any rate, I know how it is, easier said than done to go cold turkey, but it is the best way by far. Other strategies are like trying to quit drinking by having just a few beers a week. IN some ways you are lucky she's in a different country.

Anyway, curious how it went with your friends today...

 

[PatsBoy12]

Hello all. I am back after some time away. I was battling hard, as the darkness began to creep back. I had some help and now I am reporting back. I am still on the roller coaster and still just trying to find my way back. I will be around more often, as I am feeling a bit better. Still struggling. Still a bit scared. But I'm trying.

 

[ralmat55]

Keep fighting my friend. I am fighting for you. Please fight for me.


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[neuronet]

Hello all. I am back after some time away. I was battling hard, as the darkness began to creep back. I had some help and now I am reporting back. I am still on the roller coaster and still just trying to find my way back. I will be around more often, as I am feeling a bit better. Still struggling. Still a bit scared. But I'm trying.

Good to see you posting and sharing honestly. You are doing something right, because you are still with us!

 

[ralmat55]

Kenneth any reasons you have to stay in touch with her are probably hard to write down because they will come off as rationalizations....Which they probably are.

At any rate, I know how it is, easier said than done to go cold turkey, but it is the best way by far. Other strategies are like trying to quit drinking by having just a few beers a week. IN some ways you are lucky she's in a different country.

Anyway, curious how it went with your friends today...

Things went well at the friends. Told people all week that was going to have the best breakfast in town and boy did I. Of course , the ex came up. Like everyone else they were baffled by her decisions. All in all. It was a good morning.

Followed by a victory over the Jets. Then, 3 weeks after his initial post started this thread and saved my life. I spoke with my new friend, Patsboy12 on the phone. We are going to fight together and fight for one another. All in all, it was a pretty good day.


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[neuronet]

Love it, great to hear it!

 

[Ring 6]

Things went well at the friends. Told people all week that was going to have the best breakfast in town and boy did I. Of course , the ex came up. Like everyone else they were baffled by her decisions. All in all. It was a good morning.

Followed by a victory over the Jets. Then, 3 weeks after his initial post started this thread and saved my life. I spoke with my new friend, Patsboy12 on the phone. We are going to fight together and fight for one another. All in all, it was a pretty good day.


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Just awesome


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[Ring 6]

Hello all. I am back after some time away. I was battling hard, as the darkness began to creep back. I had some help and now I am reporting back. I am still on the roller coaster and still just trying to find my way back. I will be around more often, as I am feeling a bit better. Still struggling. Still a bit scared. But I'm trying.

I suggest coming here when things are at their worst. This board and this thread seem to be cathartic for you so use it when you need it most. You will get nothing but overwhelming support here.
Have a good day tomorrow and go from there [emoji3]


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[n1997y]

Hello all. I am back after some time away. I was battling hard, as the darkness began to creep back. I had some help and now I am reporting back. I am still on the roller coaster and still just trying to find my way back. I will be around more often, as I am feeling a bit better. Still struggling. Still a bit scared. But I'm trying.

Good to hear from you. Hang around whether you're feeling better or worse, we are here for you either way. I for one would rather you come here when you're down than to try to face it and fight it alone.

 

[Baboon]

Hello all. I am back after some time away. I was battling hard, as the darkness began to creep back. I had some help and now I am reporting back. I am still on the roller coaster and still just trying to find my way back. I will be around more often, as I am feeling a bit better. Still struggling. Still a bit scared. But I'm trying.

Hey friend,

After talking with you last, I saw your post about going to the Fla v Ole Miss game. It was an outstanding win for Florida, and a gorgeous day. Too bad about the qb getting suspended. Fla looked like a contender with that defense.

My mother is an Ole Miss gal, and I actually thought about trying to get tickets for her for that game, but bleh.

My personal health has improved immensely. I have not been to the ER in 5 weeks. I think my torment is over. Seeing the doc in 13 hours. Wish me luck

Best wishes to all

 

[ralmat55]

It has come back to me this morning with vengeance. The overwhelming smothering sense of sadness, hopelessness and uselessness. Just got to fight through it, but I am so tired of it. Thank you PB12. Will be strong for all of you.


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[BTTA]

Hello all. I am back after some time away. I was battling hard, as the darkness began to creep back. I had some help and now I am reporting back. I am still on the roller coaster and still just trying to find my way back. I will be around more often, as I am feeling a bit better. Still struggling. Still a bit scared. But I'm trying.

Been wondering how you've been doing. Good to hear from you, although this report sounds like it has been tough. Hope a victory over the Jest helped.

 

[Tony2046]

It has come back to me this morning with vengeance. The overwhelming smothering sense of sadness, hopelessness and uselessness. Just got to fight through it, but I am so tired of it. Thank you PB12. Will be strong for all of you.


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That sucks but it's good you're so tired of it.

Maybe a little laugh to get you going in the right direction:

I met a fairy today who granted me one wish. "I want to live forever," I said.
"Sorry," said the fairy, "I'm not allowed to grant wishes like that."
"Fine," I said, "I want to die when the Jets win the Super Bowl."
"You crafty bastard!" said the fairy.

Have a good day guys.

 

[Reckedtrek]

Ken and PB12, it is truly great to see you both here and posting!

When I've had times when things are really pulling me down, I've literally uttered the words "Not today. NOT today!" to myself. Stare yourself in the mirror and say it. Say it 10 times, a 100 times... whatever it takes to believe and act on these words.

It's about taking control of you, even if just for a day, or part of a day, when the feelings build up and overwhelm.

"Wait just long enough
See what tomorrow brings"

Greatest wishes and hopes being sent both of your ways, guys.

 

[mosslost]

I like what Reckedtrek writes here... I do a similar thing when I have sometimes struggled with being depressed or just unhappy.. Basically it is like I tell the feelings of sadness, etc, to go F&##& themselves and leave me alone. For me it actual works. I think that life is amazing, and I am very lucky to be living it... And that those depressing thoughts for me are an or attack or just such a waste of my time. And I think about people who for whatever reason are not healthy like me, or we were killed in a war, etc, and realize that I have every good thing just by being alive. There is so much great stuff out there. I am in the same age range as you Kenneth and I just know there is so much to live for...

For anyone on here who struggles with happiness try this: Google "Happiness is a choice" someone told me to do that like ten years ago and it really changed my life honestly. Abraham Lincoln once said "Everyone is basically as happy as they choose to be". Ironically he sometimes struggled with depression but he read up and learned about the concept of choosing happiness. I apologize if it is not helpful for you at the moment, but I think it is very useful concept. I look at like "I am basically DETERMINED to be happy in this life", like I won't settle for less. The concept requires understanding that our circumstances are really only part of what makes us happy or sad. Our own brains really control most of whether we are happy or not. You can train your brain to be happier. Believe it or not you make yourself happier by telling yourself you are happier! I do stuff like that all the time and I feel it helps me. It might not be a total fix but I guarantee it will help. Think positively too, as much as possible and work at it.

 

[ralmat55]

Doing much better tonight. Had a great healing day. Looking forward to what tomorrow brings.


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[Hercules Rockefeller]

Doing much better tonight. Had a great healing day. Looking forward to what tomorrow brings.


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This makes me very happy

 

[Hercules Rockefeller]

Hello all. I am back after some time away. I was battling hard, as the darkness began to creep back. I had some help and now I am reporting back. I am still on the roller coaster and still just trying to find my way back. I will be around more often, as I am feeling a bit better. Still struggling. Still a bit scared. But I'm trying.

You can lean on everyone here when you start to feel that way, we're all here and we aren't going anywhere.

 

[ralmat55]

Having a good morning. Ian, PB12, and all of you continue to encourage me. Thank you and I pray you all have a great day.


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