Just wanted to say thanks for all the kind words, they mean a lot. Yesterday was really tough. Frankly I was surprised at how hard it was, I missed him so much, and was overcome with grief. This was surprising, as we all knew he was on his way out, but no amount of knowledge was enough to prepare me for the actual loss. I've had losses in my family, I thought I would be "good" at it by now. Nope. It just sucks. I'm not any better at getting over losing a loved one. I guess that's a good thing, don't want to ever get desensitized to it.
It has been really helpful, through the fog, to come here and read the kind words. Thanks, patsfans! I thought you would understand the bond we shared as much as anyone!