I'm glad you opened this. Its no accident if you did so. No bells went off, no rockets. There was just a part of your heart, like mine, that knew you needed to change your heart towards the Lord. I didnt make anyone read this. And no other posters here know you are reading this. I dont know either. This is between you and God. Im inviting you into a relationship with a loving God. A God who loved you so much He sent his only Son to die on the cross for our sins. The good news is that it didnt stop there. Jesus rose from the dead three days later and opened a path for our own salvation. All He asks is that we acknowledge our sins and Repent, and that we put our belief and our Faith unto Him. Jesus is ready to meet you where you are. Im going to ask that you say this prayer to Him and if you mean it in your heart, something wonderful is going to change in you. You will have taken the first step towards Him, and He will take two towards you. If you are ready, and knowing this is between you and the Lord, say a prayer such as the following: "God, I recognize that I have not lived my life for You up until now. I have been living for myself and that is wrong. I'm done. I need You in my life; I want You in my life. I acknowledge the completed work of Your Son Jesus Christ in giving His life for me on the cross at Calvary, and I long to receive the forgiveness you have made freely available to me through this sacrifice. Come into my life now, Lord. Take up residence in my heart , be my king, my Lord, and my Savior. From this day forward, I will no longer be controlled by the desire to please myself, but I will follow You all the days of my life. I ask this in Jesus' precious and holy name. Amen." If you said this prayer in sincerity, you have entered a magnificent journey. Congratulations. It is only the beginning. Remember, you are not alone. Follow this up with others. Pick up the Bible and read the Gospels, especially Matthew and John. Find a Bible based church where all glory goes to Jesus Christ. Thank you for responding to the call. Its a blessing to me just to put this out there.