Disclaimer: Mods I realize that this is not technically football related so I understand if you decide to move this thread or even remove it entirely. I just ask that it stay up long enough for most to see it before doing so. It has been a long time but I am back for a little while. Much has changed in the past few months for me and I just wanted to stop by and explain my absence (both prior and future) and hopefully reestablish connections with a few of you. The last time I logged in was the Saturday before the superbowl. I was hoping that this time would be a little more pleasant, but alas... Regardless, I swear on my life that nothing that follows has anything to do with Bradyâ€™s injury. All decisions had been long made. After the Pats lost to the Giants I felt the need to take a step away from football. I can be obsessive about the things that I enjoy and the pigskin is no exception, particularly after last season with all the turmoil and jubilation. I invested a significant amount of time and energy into those boys, as Iâ€™m sure most of you did. So, in an effort to let last season pass, I stopped listening to sports radio, I stopped watching sports TV and, regretably, I stopped coming here. Instead, I read books â€“ tons of books. I was blowing through a novel a week at one point. Even then, every now and then my mind would wander and I would see Asante and Rodney dropping game ending interceptions. Ahhhhhh! After a while, as always, the ache dulled and clarity came. Then something really remarkable happened. I had a major epiphany musically that is still ongoing. For the longest time I couldnâ€™t write songs because they always ended up about the same and the lyrics were sophomoric at best. I donâ€™t know if it was the stimulation from all the reading, or the added time to play, but songs just started pouring out of me. Some extremely good, some that I am still not sure about, but all creative on a level that I had never been able to reach before. I canâ€™t explain how much of a thrill this is. Music is â€“ and will likely always be â€“ my favorite non-family pastime. Once this happened I had a decision to make. As I said before, I am completely OC when I comes to things I relish. I know myself well enough to understand that I cannot start watching football again without it becoming more than just a hobby. At my best (worst?) I can spend 30 hours a week on the game. With a 50 hour a week job and 3 small children (the new one arrived in March) there isnâ€™t enough time to dedicate what I would want to both music and football. To be frank, it was never likely that football would win out, but when I sat down and thought it out I noticed some things that I never bothered to before. Even on the best of days when NE annihilates NY 38-14 I often times walk away from the TV with minor regret over missing one of the last few beatiful days of the year. I can be treated to possibly the best 9 weeks of football that any team has ever played and still have a sour taste when I think about that season. The clincher was when I thought back on my behavior on superbowl Sunday. I wasnâ€™t a very good father to my children and it still bothers me that I put a game over them. Ultimately the answer was both obvious and difficult. So why I am I here? Over the past couple years I have buit some relationships here that I am hoping to keep intact byond football. The best place to contact me now is youtube as I have started uploading videos here If you are as fanatic about music as you are football please send a message. Hell, regardless of your desire to stay in touch, I am putting those there for feedback so lay it on me. Also, a pm is OK since I have auto-emails set up and I will still be keeping this account. Maybe someday I will be able to watch the Pats and hang out here without it being a part-time job, but I know myself too well to think that time is now. I suppose there are some of you that will call me a wuss for quitting on the Pats right when the ride gets a little rockier and thatâ€™s OK. You arenâ€™t the ones that this post is directed towards anyway. Thank you all for advancing my understanding of the game and for giving me a congenial place to talk about my favorite team. Someone is going to have to take over carrying the Welker and Maroney torches for me, and I will leave it up to the community to decide who. I hope that some of us stay in contact and that the future smiles upon us all. Go Pats.