Oh please. I understand being upset about a loss, but I hope you'll realize in a few days you're being a bit of a drama queen.
Here's the newsflash that everyone who roots for a team not called the Yankees understands since about age 7:
BEING A SPORTS FAN IS A TOUGH GIG.
That's the bottom line. The losing sucks way more than the winning feels good, and no amount of winning is ever enough. Love your team, root them on, and then bend over and get ready to take it hard, because that's what being a sports fan really is all about in the end.
The funny thing about your post is that you suggest that you have a choice whether or not to be a patriots fan. If you do, then you're a lot luckier than many of us, and you probably should just move along. Why anyone other than a masochist would, as an adult, voluntarily submit to being a sports fanatic is beyond me. I don't have a choice, like you apparently do. So your choice is not an option for me. Once upon a time, I'd get ride for 2.5 hours back and forth with my dad, and then spend 4 hours in the freezing cold with him, a couple of times a year. And for that day, I had him all to myself. And painted on the field was the word "Patriots" and that was the end. I never had a choice. So if you do, congratulations -- back the Fu*k out, and do it now, because as sure as I'm sitting here, I can promise you that being a fan will continue to hold virtually continuous heartbreak. That's the fact. Sports is a tough gig.
I suspect that like all of us, you don't have a choice and you're just venting. Which I can appreciate. So get it out of your system, and see you in a week.